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This Past Year

by A Failed Apology

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1.
This Past Year... (free) 02:57
After all these years, I've shed all these tears. Wasted so much god damn time. I wish it got you off of my mind. With no place to crash, no space to think... You wrote me off and I can't erase that ink. Every choice you ever made left nothing there for me... A little too much, a little too late, and you won't forget so easily. I'll be fine while you stay blind to the fact. You won't get me back. You had the best of me.... #TheQueenOfInconsistencies (I've held my tongue for far too long) ...and I won't make the same mistakes that I made yesterday. I'm stronger and taller than before you left You made me out to be a monster to all of your friends, and you prove you'll never be worth it, again, and again. I close these sleepy eyes, and I think about tomorrow. You left me here to die, drowning in my sorrow, but I'll wake up. Live another day. I'm doing alright, I'm doing alright. ...and I won't make the same mistakes that I made yesterday. I'm stronger and taller than before you left ...and I won't make the same mistakes that I made yesterday. I'm stronger and taller than before you left You made me out to be a monster to all of your friends, and you prove you'll never be worth it, again, and again.
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Say It, I Love You (free) 02:47
I've been thinking of you. but you knew that already. Thought it was real, but our cup was half empty. I can't think of a reason why you change with the seasons. Love was always something that you couldn't believe in. You're stuck in my mind, it keeps me up at night, cause lately you and I are anything but alright. I'm sick of defending what has come to an end and It's pretty damn clear we'll never be just friends. ...and you say I'm too good for you ...and you say I got a lot to prove, but this time I'm gonna call your bluff, 'cause I always fucking knew that I was never enough. ...and sometimes I just fall apart, 'cause you're big fake smile left a hole in my heart Always fucking up my plans to spend time with you. It never fails, you had "something better to do". Take a look in the mirror, and maybe one day you'll see a little bit clearer. It's true. I never mattered to you, and you always had a hard time saying "I love you". ...and I can't seem to understand why you left me down here. I'm nowhere near. ...and I can't seem to understand why you left me down here. I'm nowhere near. ...and sometimes I just fall apart, 'cause you're big fake smile left a hole in my heart Always fucking up my plans to spend time with you. It never fails, you had "something better to do". Take a look in the mirror, and maybe one day you'll see a little bit clearer. It's true. I never mattered to you, and you always had a hard time saying "I love you". SAY IT, I LOVE YOU (I'm too good for you) SAY IT, I LOVE YOU (You got a lot to prove) SAY IT (Never meant a thing to you, if I could take it all back, I never would have said) "I LOVE YOU"
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KYHU (free) 03:00
You reminisce over everything that should be left alone, and I can't believe that you've allowed yourself to get back to this point. Well, it makes me feel distant, from something that should be nothing short of perfect. (I'll grit my teeth for another week) I'll grit my teeth over this for another week. When will you find the happiness that you've long seeked? You dismantle my moods, you tear apart my mends, and if you do anything just don't mess this up again. Always down, and never happy. Stuck on things that happened last week. Clear your thoughts, and clear your mind. I've sang this song to you too many times. Keep your head up, I'm sick of seeing you down. You know that I will always be around. So don't keep holding onto those things that drag you down from year to year. Let's get back to everything that you've forgot. Listening to @KnucklePuckIL and @realfriendsband and hanging in the shoppe. It's all I've ever needed, why can't you see? Sometimes the little things can pick you up when you know that your... Always down, and never happy. Stuck on things that happened last week. Clear your thoughts, and clear your mind. I've sang this song to you too many times. Keep your head up, I'm sick of seeing you down. You know that I will always be around. So don't keep holding onto those things that drag you down from year to year. Just try to find a reason, to send this off. Just try to find a reason. to make this change. You just need a little more effort to send this off the ground. You just need a little more effort to send this off the ground (I'm done with this solace, I have to be honest. I'm done with this solace, I have to be honest. I had a few things to get off of my chest. I love you, I'm sorry, this was for the best)
4.
Playing With Fire (free) 02:55
I never thought growing up would be like playing with fire, we're losing ourselves in the flames, but lately I get by with friends and memories of when we were young and dumb back then... You taught me to live for today, I wanted you to stay, but we couldn't do anything. ...and I'd give my life all the same. We were miles and miles away, but know you still mean everything (everything to me) No matter how the cards stack.... I'll always have your back No matter how the cards stack.... I'll always have your back I'll see you again. (There is no master plan, not now and never been, I bet my heart on it.) I never thought growing up would be like playing with fire, we're losing ourselves in the flames. You taught me to live for today, I wanted you to stay, but we couldn't do anything. ...and I'd give my life all the same. We were miles and miles away, but know you still mean everything (everything to me)
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The Way I Think of You (free) 02:28
It's been a few weeks and it seems to me that I probably should have seen this coming. You said you know that it's all your fault, well, I guess we both had that in common Back then when you came to me you took my heart and you left me stranded. Now I think it's my turn to tell you, this time you're leaving empty handed If you call me tomorrow with plans for a new beginning. I'd say "I've learned a lot about life. I'm fucked up, but I'm still singing" Ask me again if I'd take you back, I'd say "Yeah right, you must be dreaming" Two small words won't erase your past and it won't erase #TheWayIThinkOfYou MY PAIN WON'T LAST (Brad from Cedar Kites in caps) I don't feel hollow CHOKE DOWN LIES While I can't swallow EVERYTHING You said would last, because I know I tried my best I DON'T WANT PLAIN ..but I don't need perfect YOU SHOWED ME What isn't worth it. STEP BACK ...and finally see or spend your life in misery If you call me tomorrow with plans for a new beginning. I'd say "I've learned a lot about life. I'm fucked up, but I'm still singing" Ask me again if I'd take you back, I'd say "Yeah right, you must be dreaming" Two small words won't erase your past and it won't erase #TheWayIThinkOfYou The way I think of you (Brent Martone Head North) The way I think of you (Sean Hayes of Sleep Atlantic) [Keep my old t-shirt, it's your best feature] The way I think of you (Anthony Musior of The Traditional) The way I think of you (Sebastian Cichon of Alleys) [Keep my old t-shirt, it's your best feature]

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Recorded by Jay Zubricky at GCR Audio

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released October 7, 2014

Special thanks to the following people for helping us with the gang vocals on the record #GangViolence

Sebastian Cichon of Alleys, Alex Zilliox of Alleys, Anthony Musior of The Traditional, Brent Martone of Head North, Brad Gottorff of Cedar Kites, Mike LoGrasso of Cedar Kites, Sean Hayes of Sleep Atlantic, Tom Mellen of Figurehead/Ellsworth

We'd also like to thank the following for contributing guest vocals on "The Way I Think of You" (in order of appearance)

Brad Gottorff of Cedar Kites
Brent Martone of Head North
Sean Hayes of Sleep Atlantic
Anthony Musior of The Traditional
Sebastian Cichon of Alleys

Finally, a huge thank you to everyone that has supported us from the start. We hope you'll like this record.

All songs written by A Failed Apology.
All songs recorded, mixed, and mastered by Jay Zubricky of GCR Audio.

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